How many times have I missed the mark? Probably too many times to count. Fear of failure, eagerness to please everyone else in my life, and an overwhelming need to avoid conflict, are character flaws that have kept me from my dreams. This is not an unsubstantiated whine but admissions I was forced to confront during six years of therapy. Even now as I look around I can still see the bones of present day unfinished goals.
However, I don’t want to confront future totally “missed marks” just now. Maybe a run through of some old ones will help respark the determination that I pretended to gain in all those hours with the therapist.
1. I never finished getting my college degree. Oh, I finished the two year that helped me land a job and I even went back years later when my children were older. It seemed to me the money would be better spent on their educations.
2. I quit the job I loved most because I lacked the self confidence to fight for it.
3. That I did not pursue the interests and passions surrounding my collections but let lack of confidence allowed me to be convinced to abandon them.
I don’t want to bore any readers of this with anymore of my short comings. As you get older you come to the realization that the list is too damn long and making the mark never gets any easier.