Burned My Soul

As I kid I could not fit in

As a man nothing goes as planned

When I felt a feeling flutter in

I crushed it in my hands

They're stained with luminescence like

The essence of dreams, an

Origin of innocence I no longer see

Now I see what is in front of me

Drifting through life

When it rains it pours, but still,

At least the imagery's nice

Even triumphs are amusements

There is nothing in joy, or

One aspect of elation I have not destroyed

So you say you saw a side of me

Hidden from the others

But that portion of my whole

Is no component I had smothered

It is just another mask, one on top of many

I gave up living when I burned my soul

The angels and the devils, they

Hover in my room

I cannot see in color, I'm entombed

The angels and the devils, they

Are always wanting more

Their ghosts are casting shadows on the floor

They said that love was real

Like a child I believed

But life belied my fantasy

As life was only me

So I sat upon the surface

And many tears I shed,

For years I was afflicted

With your face inside my head,

Instead of turning inward

I cast my soul outside

Enveloped in a poisoned place

To keep the pain alive

Memories are precious

But I have none anymore

All I see lies outside of me

Just shadows on the floor

In the end, if I become a husk

I'll know what I've become

Is a visage in the dark

Never a shade under the sun