by Robert - just a simple man - B.
Member since:
April 12, 2007

I'll Not Die

June 23, 2010 12:18 AM UTC (Updated: June 23, 2010 02:47 PM UTC)
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I’ll Not Die

©2010 R C Burnham

 

I lay here tonight and I wonder

How I could have come to this end

My tears, they don’t shower, they thunder

And I’ve come as far as I can bend

Don’t think that this is a sad song

I’ve seen some wonders in my time

My heart may be bleeding but I’ve lived long

Enough to have held a little sunshine

 

It’s from missing the light that I know darkness

It’s memories of warm kisses that keeps me cold

It’s knowing I once had friends in God’s likeness

That now has me lamenting my soul

I just need to find a place that I was truly happy

And return there because it’s a good day to die

Where a sparkling river flows past a pine tree

A fine place to bid the world goodbye

 

But what if that river’s a false memory

What if it never existed at all?

What if God truly has forsaken me

Will I still make a sound when I fall?

 

I lay here tonight and I wonder

Could I have ever changed my end

Was being unlucky in love my blunder

I still seem to have a lot within

So please don’t cry over this story

And don’t bemoan upon my last breath

Just listen; I’ll be singing in glory

And I’ll not die; even in death.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Comments: 37

Charis R. Jun 23, 2010, 12:52am UTC
Wow! What can I say...amazing!
Angie O. Jun 23, 2010, 1:03am UTC
Hauntingly beautiful but so sad; I hope it is not true to life.
Richard Lynn Livesay Jun 23, 2010, 1:16am UTC
the tears of a poet do thunder into the night and echo down the valley
but it makes us who we are. touching lament
Sharon P. Jun 23, 2010, 1:14am UTC
We will all live on forever in His Glory
All we must do is believe.
Richard Lynn Livesay Jun 23, 2010, 1:18am UTC
amen, the knowing is called faith and that is our truth!...forever!! bless you Sharon
Sharon P. Jun 23, 2010, 1:19am UTC
Thanks Richard. He is the only Guide we need.
Kat Ballew Jun 23, 2010, 1:25am UTC
I can feel your pain in these words.

As I've said before, you definitely have a gift, your writings are laced with talent. Excellent Robert. (I, too, hope it is not true to life!)
Lisa Frost Bailey Jun 23, 2010, 5:05am UTC
highly emotional and touching..good write Bro
Danielle P. Jun 23, 2010, 5:13am UTC
The words that come from the depths of your soul are like a cool mist that cleanse and rejuvenate the mind.
tame mainstay Jun 23, 2010, 3:14pm UTC
So be it! So be it! So be it! tame
Patti M. Jun 23, 2010, 5:44am UTC
Robert, the despair in your words is palpable. I do hope you find your happiness someday soon. Robert, please don't leave us! I know it feels like life is too hard to live at times. God has not forsaken you my friend, just ask for help. He will send angels to comfort you.
Blessings to you my dear friend.
A Parameswaran N. Jun 23, 2010, 6:17am UTC
Wonderful! It really is in my genre!
Last night, I sat up late
When sleep came, came rain, thunder and lightning
Could not shut my eyes,
This morning I am crying, out of joy

Thanks...
Kasey Klein Jun 23, 2010, 7:32am UTC
To steal from Patti:

"Robert, the despair in your words is palpable."

Thanks for posting to Short Story and More!
Felicia G. Jun 23, 2010, 9:32am UTC
Powerful!
Shira C. Jun 23, 2010, 9:48am UTC
You should set this to music, seriously!

Thanks for posting this to The Surreal Circus!
Dennis Gilman Jun 23, 2010, 12:26pm UTC
I just need to find a place that I was truly happy

And return there because it’s a good day to die

Where a sparkling river flows past a pine tree

A fine place to bid the world goodbye


Been there many times Robert. Been there too many times.
Angela A. Jun 23, 2010, 12:38pm UTC
If only death could be sweet release, I'd gladly kneel at that altar.
Flowers sprinkled beneath my feet as a symbol of the sweet nectar,
I will feel.
Thanks for your contribution to my group, Anythingwriting
Kathryn Flynn Jun 23, 2010, 1:26pm UTC
Beautiful.
M. Bradley McCauley Jun 23, 2010, 2:07pm UTC
Somehow this made me think of Socrates and his final moments. Don't know why.
Randi Burnham-Brown Jun 23, 2010, 8:58pm UTC
Robert I am going to post this and than when you find it you can delete it but I find this very upseting. As a sister maybe I have let you down, I ponder that thought.
Robert - just a simple man - B. Jun 23, 2010, 9:35pm UTC
No, I got to desperation all by myself. Some people let me down but not any people that matter.
Robert - just a simple man - B. Jun 23, 2010, 9:58pm UTC
Whatever the outcome in the lives of your three brothers, my sis, you will always be innocent. You haven't let any of us down.
Kushal Poddar Jun 23, 2010, 9:52pm UTC
When you cry
I find how easy it is to open a can of sky
with clouds making me wet.

I ask you to wait
and with my fingers
draw out the sun
from the bottom of the can
a surprise gift
pre-pacaged by God.
Kushal Poddar Jun 23, 2010, 9:53pm UTC
Brother your grief really make me feel those lines.
Robert - just a simple man - B. Jun 23, 2010, 10:00pm UTC
I miss the Beatles. ie: Here comes the sun, tada tada, here comes the sun and it's alright......
Franklin Newman Oct 30, 2011, 2:35am UTC
Another of your brilliant ones, for both of you.
Ruthi C. Jun 24, 2010, 10:28am UTC
Quite a somber plea, quite sadly so.
Ruthi C. Jun 24, 2010, 10:28am UTC
...smiles...
Thanks for adding Nuttin' But Sunshine to -- Sun Bespeckled Ink!
Marie J. R. Jun 24, 2010, 7:41pm UTC

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Patience dear heart,,, you are young and strong,,, God Bless you,,,
Robert - just a simple man - B. Jun 24, 2010, 8:16pm UTC
Are them flowers for my headstone? Awwwww
Marie J. R. Jun 25, 2010, 2:19pm UTC

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Don't even think like that,,, God gave you a brain and a heart,,, Life is special,,, Do something positive,,, write your book,,, I am self publishing once more,,,it keeps me busy,,,look to the good Lord and you will know what to do,,, be safe,,,God Bless you dear Robert,,, time takes time slowly,,,
Robert - just a simple man - B. Jun 25, 2010, 2:54pm UTC
Not to argue sweet Marie, but self-publishing is an expense I cannot take on. However, I am doing the 'right' things; networking, meeting employers, brushing up my job skills, praying; maybe something will come soon.
Marie J. R. Jun 25, 2010, 3:01pm UTC
Dearest Robert, I didn't know you were looking for work. My 55 year old son Michael is struggling too looking for work. Things must change, and I believe they will. I pray for you guys. Please be well. God Bless you. Keep fighting,,,
Karolyn Q. Jun 25, 2010, 9:43pm UTC
This is beautiful Robert. I wish you the best in finding work. My husband was out of work for 9 months. A little over a year later and he is looking for work again. They keep cutting his hours and making it very difficult to get by. He is looking everywhere outside of Florida too. I am ready to leave here.
Shelbia C. Jul 22, 2010, 8:53pm UTC
Beautiful, sad, and powerful.
Catalina P. Oct 15, 2011, 12:24am UTC
You words is as if they touch the very core of me......This is a beautiful poem
it expresses better than I ever could the pain ....... Thank you Robert
Nichelle Mitchem Oct 30, 2011, 1:57am UTC
Simply beautiful!

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