11:00 disclaimer: spelling and grammatical errors have not been created through streams of tears.
It's my birthday and I'll cry if I want to....
I'm glad that this is only 5 min. as I have to get ready for lunch. Saturday was my husbands birthday, yesterday was my mom's 21st memorial anniversary, today is my birthday. I can't tell you what a rollercoaster these three days have been for the last 20+ years. I get bluesy thinking about the day that my mother left us. I have to rally for my husbands birthday. The following day, I visit her grave and cry my heart out. Actually i don't have to be at her grave to cry my heart out. I cry where ever whenever.. I cry because she was a wonderful, loving, nuturing mother. I cry because as i was really beginning to understand how great our relationship is, I lost her to cancer. I cry because i see so many people enjoying their parents, and I would give anything to have that in my life. I cry because she would have loved to have watched my boys grow up . I cry because I'm a girl and I can.
Then after all the tears are gone, I have to rally for my family and look like i'm enjoying my birthday. Everyone puts so much effort into making it a wonderful day for me and I have to rally for that. Can a person move their birthdate? Ok, that's it for me, with tears inbeteeen all the letters..at points i could bareley see the keyboard or the screen. "It's my birthdya nad I'll cry if I want to... you would cry too if it happened to you."